Regrets

I regret the lies,
The good byes,
What ever happened.

I would have changed,
But know its all arranged.
My regrets about you build.

You lied and lied
While i stood there and cried.
Why couldnt you see?
Now i regret you being with me.


my best friend wrote this for me to help my on my homework for english. hope u liked it!

Story of my Life

RSVP Regrets Only
_{by Linda Pastan} 

I regret that i can't come.
I regret that moment we met
and the way you pretended.
I regret the sun that day,
its warmth so artificial,
and I regret the way pain
has taught me nothing.
I regret this invitation,
its phony formality,
its ink coming off like sin
on my clean fingers.
Since the day I met you,
I regret everything.


idk, this just really spoke to me in english one day and i just had to put it up.

Uhhh!!!!

I AM SO SICK OF HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so today in history, we're playing this game to help us get ready for our quiz. i go up and try to answer the question but end up repeating wat the other girl said. so on my way back to my seat, my ex just has to make a comment and he just all like "u shouldn't have answered" so it's just like, thanks for making me feel worse. idk wat it is, but i feel like he's out to get me or something. to make my life worse then it already is. well, that's not going to stop me. even though i started high school in the worst way, ive got some pretty good friends and good grades so far. i mean, he said he wanted to be friends right? wrong. the dudes a friggin nightmare come alive. ive already had to deal with one hell on earth and im NOT going to go through that again.

6th Period Friday

Okay, in 6th period on friday, my ex and one of his new friends were sitting next to each other when we circled up, and almost right away, my teacher told one of them to switch places with someone else in the class. so, i just HAD to write SOMETHING for it. it's pretty bad, but i think it captures my point. here's wat i wrote during class today:


It's all too obvious he has at least a little love for her and it's just unbelievable. He's always so dead when he or she is moved. he's distant and dead and depressed. it's so sad... for him. it's almost as if he doesn't know how to smile if she's not next to him in class. but she's the same way, only a little less. but it's sad all the same way. i swear, it kills me sometimes how lost he seems. unless im totally miss-reading all of this, i'm sure im at least mostly right... i haven't been wrong yet. lets see how much longer my streak will last. 


so yea, that's wat i was thinking today in 6th period.

and i aced my english quiz! can u believe it?!?!?!?!?!?!? only 19 out of 26 kids in my class got 100% and i was one of them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can't wait till i can start diving again though, i hate being out of the water.

At school...So bored!

Wat up people. curently at school using a school computer. hope yr not all as bored as i am. although i really should be studying for my english quiz today. idk how my teacher is going to give it too us... and i sure as hell am not going to wish for anything. don't u just hate it when u wish for something and the complete opposite happens? or wen you wish for the opposite of wat u want to happen and it happens anyway. it has been like that for me for the past few months. i kept praying and wishing things would go well between me and my bf, and wat happens? he dumps me. whenever i wish for something good, bad things happen. wenever i wish for the opposite, wat i wished for happens. little bit of adice from me, stop wishing and just go with watever is happening. it sucks though that i can't seem to be able to download safari on the school computer. we should be using it instead of internet explorer. safari is so much betteR. AM I RIGHT PEOPLE WHO USE SAFARI?!?!?!? plus, i see people EVERYWHERE around school with ipones and touchscreens, while i have a stupid little flip phone that ran out of mins yesterday. CAN U BELIEVE IT?!?!? anyway im gunna go and study for my friggin ass english quiz. L8R!!!!!!!!



the words i know for my quiz:

rue: v. to regret
admonish: v. to scold or repremend
disheveled: adj. messy or untidy

^ that's all i know..... out of ten! wish me luck!!!!!!!